I have been suffering anxiety because I am gay all my life I have been a person with nervous but since I reali

I realized that I am gay, the nervous start to be stronger.. everyday I wake up with cold feet and my I am afraid of that.. after I told my mom the reason that I never had a gf because I like guys.. she creamed she told all my family and cry and cry.. after that she takes to the psycology she told her I am gay that woman told her I was confused, but after that I said her I am not confused, she told my mom she doest believe nobody were born gay, the gays made himself maybe I made gay because the envirioment, well I live in mexico, after that I thought the anxiety will be over, then she took me with another doctor and this one doctor told me being gay is a mysteri dont know the cause, after that she took me with a psquiatra..but this one same the thing being gay is a mysteri but he told my mom he wished not have a gay son.after he give me medications but I dont feel better.. he doesnt help me in nothing to go to doctors here it's expensive and hard to find a good doctor in my small tow