Help please...?

okay. well to start with, i don't know if there is anything anyone can do under these cirstances but..well, i believe i am clinically depressed. i most likely either need anti-depressants or at least therapy. but i don't want to ask anyone for help. i don't want to say to my mom "mom, i need to go to a doctor. i think i am depressed". well for starters thats just awkward but i also want someone to notice. i know its weird, but i dont think i'm right in the mind. oh, and another question is can depression become worse over time. because i think i am becoming more and more depressed. i have recently had thoughts of just popping a few extra pain relievers, even though i know that would kill my liver, or depending on the medicine, cause an ulcer. but recently, lifes been just so bad. and no not in the way of stupid teen drama but actual stuff. but i'm afraid of going down that wrong road but i feel it coming on. and no i know it doesnt make sense but i cant tell anyone this and im stuck